小丑寫故事

Quite a long time didn't use english as language to write blog

Of course one of the reason is my grammar not so good

But it's ok

At least I know what I talking

Recently

I have met unhappy incident

very Very UNHAPPY

I know it is already usual to me & my family

but.....

but......

I really unhappy

I felt so tired

I felt so pain

But I don't know if I should cry or not

Maybe not......

Compare to others families

that one in my family is nothing

BUT I really HATE THIS

WHY HE CAN'T COME TO SENSE?!?!

WHY HE ALWAYS ADDICTED TO GAMBLE?!?!?

WHY HE CAN'T JUST SIT DOWN AND SELF-EXAMINATION!?!?!

DID HE KNOW IT ALREADY HURT OUR HEARTS?!?

Stupid!!!!

JERK!!!!

DARNED IT!!!!!!!!!!

I really upset that having a father like him

it already happened many times

we also forgive him once by once

but

why he can't cherish it?

why he always destroy all these?

why? why? WHY?!?!

I really tired

I felt so pain

but i know

I can't cry in front of my mom

She just a woman

Not a Superwoman

She also get hurt

also helpless

and her heart also bleeding

It is useless to cry

It wouldn't be help with cry

I wouldn't forgive he anymore

that JERK deserves it!

I already grown up

I wouldn't ask a stupid request to reconcile my parent

He deserves it!

I wouldn't recognize a jerk as my father

the relationship will be an end after the divorce of my parent

I have to be strong

I know I can do it

I know I can smile and restart my new life

I trust I can do it

Because I am CLOWN

p.s. Thanks for all caring from your guys. I will be stronger. Thank you.